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I’m sitting in a classroom. The school desks are full of people. It’s break time and the atmosphere is lively – lots of adults moving between the desks, talking, laughing and discussing passionately. Suddenly, a teacher enters the classroom. She is holding a contract in her hand, which she wants to hand over to me, but the crowd of people is blocking her way. This doesn’t seem to stop her – she floats slightly above the crowd and heads straight for me. I watch her and suddenly realize I can do it too. Without hesitation, I pick myself up off the ground and fly towards her. I know I can fly.

The others stare at us disinterestedly, as if this is completely normal. No one is surprised, no one reacts. Not even the teacher. She’s cold, stern, like she doesn’t care about my flight. I wish she’d notice. To acknowledge that I can do what she can do. I expect the others to say something, to appreciate it. But they just stay silent, as if flying is the most ordinary thing they can imagine. It makes me sad. The special ability I have suddenly seems completely useless.

Later, a colleague comes up to me and asks if I’d like to have coffee with him. I agree, but later I remember that I had already arranged something with my sister at that time. I don’t know how to handle it all, how to decide. I don’t make decisions based on myself. Neither appointment touches me intrinsically, but I want to make them happy and accommodate them. I can feel the stress rising in me. That familiar, uncomfortable feeling that haunts me over and over again.

Conversation with myself: Unraveling Symbols with the STV Method (Symbol Insight Therapy)

– Flying, floating… What does it mean?

– It means you can ascend. Above problems, above people. You see things from a height, from a perspective where others can’t see. Maybe you expect someone to notice. To appreciate it. But to others, this remains invisible. They don’t know it, and therefore they don’t see it.

– Why did I dream about this at school?

– School is a symbol. It represents the world of learning. This is something you have to learn, too. The teacher ignores it. It doesn’t even occur to her that someone in the class might have that ability. She’s more worried about it. But you’re able to see what she can’t. And because of that, you can soar. Above the classroom, above the school, above the clouds and beyond… to a space where there are no boundaries.

– That sounds wonderful. But what if it separates me from the others? What if I lose my connection to people? Won’t I just be alone and sad?

– And now? Are you happy the way you are?

– No, I’m not.

– So what if things could be different? What if you could be a part of people, but still be free? What if you could detach from the weight of the earth but not lose your connection? Wouldn’t you like to try?

– If it’s possible… then yes. I want to try.
– What about time? How does time fit into this?

– Time is connected to the earth. It’s the bond that keeps you grounded. But you’re already untethered. You’re no longer bound to time or space. You’re beyond human moods, whims and trifles.

– What about the return?

– The return? It’s no longer possible. You can’t go back to the way things were. You won’t fit back in.

– So what now?

– Now what? Now is the time to really fly 😊